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So, I still do not have a job. My interviews are over, and I got rejected. I am still looking every day, applying for everything I can, and looking into getting certified for more grade levels. But right now I have nothing. It hurts. I know God has a plan. I know I will get a job. I know we will be ok. I know I am not a bad teacher. But it was easy to believe that when I had interviews lined up that looked hopeful. Now, when I can see nothing on the horizon, I am feeling the pain.

He can do more than I can imagine. He does not give us more than we can handle. Waiting is hard.

For my birthday, I would like a job. Amen.

Pomp and Circumstance

My husband graduated from college this weekend! YAY! I am so proud of all of his hard work and perseverance. He stuck with it and is now a graduate. Hooray for David! Also hooray for our future children, who have two parents with degrees and will probably also get degrees, as well! Or so say the statistics.

I feel like I will get a job this week, by the way. If I don't it will be fine, because I know there is a plan in place. I might get a little disappointed, but we have faith that God is providing. This could be the week, though! Two interviews that should have been last week but were canceled due to flooding. I would be thrilled with either! The anticipation is making me a little crazy!!

Sunshine Today

This morning when I woke up around 9:30 (school got cancelled due to flooding), the sun was shining so bright! Praise! It put me in such a good mood, I am cleaning the house while David is gone, finishing his paintings. We are in the last week of his degree program, I can see the light at the end, and it is beautiful!!

On the other hand of things, my joints have been killing me since the rain started. My fingers hurt first, then a shoulder. Now my knees are both sore. Gaah. I was tested for arthritis a few years ago when my joints started bothering me one random New Year's Eve night... But all the tests were negative. I need to go to a specialist. Oh dear...

So, looking forward to the following things: two interviews this week with two schools I think I would be very happy at, figuring out my schedule at the Discovery Center for the summer, buying some sweet Mother's Day present for my MIL, congratulating David on finishing school!, and Field Day with my kids at school. Good times!

Blustery Day

I have lived in Tennessee all my life, and have grown accustomed to dealing with the completely absurd weather patterns we tend to experience. We frequently have tornados in the spring, and this weekend we are experiencing quite a bit of flooding. Now, I am not afraid of storms. I think they are cool and I know the precautions to take, so I see no reason to be scared. However, with this flooding going on... I think I am terrified of a flood! There are pictures all over the news of water half covering stores and homes, roads completely closed off, and rivers more swollen than they have been in decades. I can't imagine water coming up and covering my windows! What in the world would you do?? Get on the roof?

I know some people are experiencing that right now. Praying that God will stop the rain, send them rescue, and bring peace to anyone effected by the storms.

Again, I am moving to the desert.

Reason 873

that David is the best husband in the world: When he gets mad, he cleans the kitchen.

Amazing. Pure happiness. No guilt, because I asked if I could help and he said no.

Also, I have a job interview next week at a school I reeeeeally want to work at! I feel like I want it almost too much. The whole thing happened so perfectly, that I feel like it must be His planning... But then again, I know we learn so much during times of struggle and desperation, I kinda think God wants me to learn something else and I'm not done suffering... Either way, His plan is the one we're going with! But for the record, I want this job! :)

Mo' Moe

Our dog, Moe, is a very strange and delightful creature. He is afraid of everything. Everything- People, loud noises, weird looks I occasionally give him, cameras, and doorbells on television. On top of that, he thinks he is a cat. He loves to lay on the back of the couch, stretched out in the sun. Sometimes he will lay on his back and swat at us with his paws, very catlike. His dire need to sit right between David and I on the couch is also an anomaly which we cannot explain.

Right now, though, he is hiding behind my feet. Snuggled so closely between my legs and the couch I am surprised he can fit there. His fear of storms has driven him to hide. Thunder upset him in his normal cat-ish pose on the back of the couch and he is now seeking shelter under me. Its very adorable. He is sleeping peacefully. I guess we have switched roles. He is the one always "protecting" me from strangers and noises of car doors shutting a few houses down. Now I am protecting him from the storms. Oh dog love!

Safe

In the past few weeks I have learned that I take a lot of my self image and pride from my job. Silly that I put all my confidence in something I can't control. I know I need to shift it to confidence in the Lord ONLY! I'm working on that...
for the LORD will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being snared.
Proverbs 3:26


to the one whose dreams are falling all apart
and all you’re left with is a tired and broken heart
i can tell by your eyes you think you’re on your own
but you’re not alone

have you heard of the One who can calm the raging sea
give sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet
with a love so strong and never let you go
no you’re not alone

you will be safe in His arms, you will be safe in His arms
‘cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
this is the promise He made, He will be with you always
when everything is falling apart you will be safe in His arms

did you know that the voice that brings the dead to life
is the very same voice that calls you now to rise
so hear Him now He’s calling you home
you will never be alone

these are the hands that built the mountains
the hands that calm the sea
these are the arms that hold the heavens
they are holding you and me
these are the hands that healed the leper
pulled the lame up to their feet
these are the arms that were nailed to a cross
to break our chains and set us free

safe in His arms, safe in His arms
safe in His arms
when everything is falling apart
you will be safe in His arms…”

– “safe”.. by phil wickham